I was reading an article in my Parenting magazine (surprise, surprise) and I saw an article from a mother who was writing about what motherhood means to her. One paragraph totally hit home, “My choices are laid bare to a tiny observer who’s learning from them, good and bad. Do I call myself fat when my jeans feel too tight? Sit down to a healthy breakfast or spoon peanut butter directly from the jar? Scowl at the UPS guy for no good reason?” It made me stop and think about my daily activities and how very closely Natalie watches my every move. Do I want to pass on my pessimistic attitude to her?
I want her to only see the best in life for as long as possible. I want her to dream big and be full of love and hope. I want her to be comfortable with herself and love herself just the way she is. So it looks like I have a crap load of work ahead of me. Today I used mindfulness while my little sweet pea was being a major sauerkraut. She was so cranky and it seemed like nothing I did suited her. I took many deep breaths (concentrating on saying, “In, calming, out, smiling” as I did) and tried to remind myself that we all have bad days. I am just thankful to have her and to have this time to work on myself before she gets bigger and starts mimicking me.
Quote for the day:
"Every worthwhile accomplishment, big or little, has its stages of drudgery and triumph; a beginning, a struggle and a victory." ~Ghandi
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